Dearest diary,

You know, these holidays have been a very strange holidays. I knew that God was going to do something, he was going to shake me up, or something. I've been able to go out quite often, catch a few movies, and do some school work, not as much as I would've liked but decent amount. I guess. For the first time, I'm starting to feel a bit of pressure. With the rejection of the BaCC interview, its all eyes ahead to trying to get into law. I guess this is a bad approach; rather, let God take over my attitude and I be a testimony in my studies. And if I don't get in, what do I look to? transferring from another course? so many unknowns. Increasingly de-motivated of late in doing ancient and Japanese, if I really want it, God in your strength, I know I can do it. Will I be bold enough?

Relationship;
with God, reading the Bible attentively and with the intent of wanting to grow deeper. coming to youth and church ready to give a sacrifice of praise, something of cost, because God has it all, what use is something that is not a sacrifice of praise? Nothing. In prayer, what have I been focusing on? Not Kingdom issues, but my own petty little problems, that are my own fault. Break free time?

with my family, yesterday being able to spend an entire day with my dad's side of relatives. being my grumpy old self as always, letting girl situations and school work dictate my mood, it doesn't reflect well on you God... at all.

with my mates, appreciated how people care about me, they invest time into hearing me out, they share in good times, they share in bad times, they're always there.

with girls, questioning myself. trying to find the true meaning when we declare to you are ALL we need. Have I become so used to the feeling/the thought/the idea, of having someone there? of having some security? Do I really need that security...? No. Do I feel I need it? too many times, yes.

General discussion;

Is Jesus coming back soon? Such is the state of the world, who really knows. Predestinations, tribes people in the forest, the Catholic Church, Genesis, suffering, natural disasters, my friends and their eternal predicament. All are questions which sit within me. But like written in Hebrews, FIX EYES upon Jesus. If theres one thing I want to get totally carried away with, completely surrendered to, its unto the will of Jesus Christ, Savior of the Earth. Savior of my Soul.

Conclusion;

Heb 12:1,2
Let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith

Romans 12:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Lets go, servants of Jesus Christ.

In Christ

Andrew