been almost a year since i wrote anything
i doubt anyone will read this. i've mostly been writing things down in my diary and looking back at that.
you can learn a lot from looking back...reflecting...thinking about what you've done, what you haven't done, the opportunities you were given, the friendships u've made, the family you have.
its good. sometimes sad. sometimes brings a smile.
the thing is, we can't change the past. we just can't. and of course there comes regret. living in regret, the concept of living in regret. its bad. its terrible. i guess theres a difference between making sense of the past, coz yeah of course u can't change the past but u can change the future.
and even though u mighta stuffed up, try and make it up in the actions today. thats what counts.
i miss kenta. i don't a days passed where i haven't looked to his photo on my wall, and felt exactly that. regret. easier said than done ey. i wish i could talk to him one more time. cancer can go... yeah...can just go.
school is busy, well ish. dropping 4 unit has given me a lot of time, time that u can be lazy or time u can use for the good. assessment block 2. this time i'm actually taking it seriously.
melbourne billet and crawford shield coming up this weekend. I WANT TO WIN BASKETBALL.
at least once in 6 years. itd be sickkk if we pulled it off.
school and iscf has been so so. there are those meetings when u have really good discussion. and then theres sometimes where thers absollutely nothing. coeme to add to the fire i like to say, otherwise whats the point?
youth is fantastic. enjoying it again. loving going there and just surrendering myself, and learning the Word and having fellowship. same with church.
reading 'The God Delusion' at the moment. pretty interesting read, plenty of frustrating times but overall, opens up the way i see God, and the way others see Him (or Not) and how to convey the reality and truth of the Bible/Gospel to others. is there any point on arguing? coz it'll go from one apologetic to another, to a point where its pretty meh. its as tho like it becomes arguing for the sake of it. rmbring we're just planting the seed.
i guess gotta try and not be ignorant and complacent. appreciate things for what they are. mostly are privelages, not rights.
BYE DIARY.