Something about the past few weeks has gotten me excited? Well strange feelings of sort, a sense of things drawing to a close, I guess in a sense, this season of my life finishing itself off. Which is sad, to say the least, but equally exciting.

To think I can count the amount of school days I have left on my fingers has started to highlight the very real reality that I'll be leaving high school forever, so very soon. And that's exciting, I mean, all our lives, we wait for the day when we can NEVER GO TO SCHOOL EVER AGAIN. Yet 13 years down the track, with my HSC nearly finished, an overwhelming sense 0f sadness has risen up. Sort of a paradox isn't it. I know, being the sort of person I am, I am going to miss people. I will miss my teachers, my classmates; the people who, to their own knowledge or not, have shaped me to who I am today. Praise be to God for the amazing people I've been surrounded with, what a blessing.

Only now is it becoming very real to me that many of the people I've seen every day for the past six years, I will never see again; or see on a regular basis anyway.

It's all to easy to look back, particularly on the last year, and regret things. I could easily write now, a list of things I 'could have' and 'should have' done. Yet all things considered, I'm left with one thought; what an amazing God. What an amazing God who has blessed with people and relationship, family and friends, with an education, all of which I deserve none.

But how well have I run the race? Have I been testament to the amazing God that I say I serve, that I proclaim my all and the purpose of my existence? Can I even answer that?

I've stayed firmly committed to staying away from drinking, kept swearing out of my vocabulary, attended church and youth and ISCF, remained strict in my view of relationship. I've done all that. But then there's the stuff I haven't done. Then comes regret. So thinking about, I've tried to look at this differently.

Nothing I can or ever will do, makes me right with God. In all my failings and short-comings, glorious and amazing is God that allows me still to worship Him, still to love on Him, still to call myself a child of God. Our God is an awesome God.

In the calamity and hype of Formal, I've resolved to not take anybody. Beneath my ridiculous humor and proclaimed self-pity, there is actually no urge nor desire to take anybody. I know instead these next two weeks are going to be a bag of mixed emotions to say the least. I'll try not to be scared. I'll trust God and be joyous in His salvation.

In all things considered and thought and in spite of so many times prior, this time I'm not going to regret anything. Instead, I will set my eyes upon Jesus Christ and continue to run the race as best I can, knowing that this season is ending so very very soon.